Do you really want to know about me lol?
Well, I am listening to Faith Evans sing Never Let You Go at 5:22 AM while making this page. I am lip-syncing to it and performing as if I am in a dimly lit board room with all eyes on me while my eyes are closed forgetting investors are even there for my special time. Very aware of the moment but being captured away by my own heart's performances of many emotions. That scenario is me in a nutshell.
I dream and sing and perform my way all the way to them.
I am a disabled labeled artist of what I love to see, hear, taste, and feel. One day I have plans for smells too. Born and raised in Columbia, South Carolina I always hid from my desire to perform and be seen as more than the shy counterpart people thought I was. I simply valued and needed meaningful conversations. If it was anything less like just polite greetings people do in passing to talk about the real issues then I would simply laugh and smile it off to make us both feel better that no one spoke about the avoided bs. I'm sure people thought I was either shy, crazy, retarded, or a combination of all three and some. I can only tell you if they did they never said it to me at which my response would have been, "BIRCH I MIGHT BE" lol.
I love my idea of people because my condition has kept me away from getting close enough to learn how to love people for who they are. So I go based on my dreams of the potential I witness in them from their behavior and correspondence. Very dangerous fire to play with I know because we all don't always care to live up to someone else's idea of potential concerning us. By the way, the song has just changed to Xscape singing The Arms of the One Who Loves You.
This venture of sharing myself and my creations from my abusive dangerous and destructive but hopeful lifestyle is my attempt to love sharing this world my way while doing all I can to be saved, witnessed, and sensed to bring awareness to disabled loved ones in every community. Love them before it's too late for them as well.
Brandy- Missing You is the last song we will share together here as it just came on.
I love you all and I hope you enjoy my sites. This one and InmateZones.com. Also check out my life's story available on Amazon called The Identifier of Real vs Truth: THE ONGOING BATTLE THAT IS ALREADY WON by MJMcIntear.
Standing By With Matthew